Sunday, April 7, 2013
Sunday, March 17, 2013
First Time in 28 Years
First times ... Well, since I've blogged last, I saw Storm for the first time in around 28 years. He had a lot of trouble making it here; his bus rear-ended someone backing out of a parking lot and that delayed him making his flight. He was catching a bus from Atlanta after the flight, so when I went to meet him, he didn't get off. I went early to Savannah so I could visit with my son, so I missed his call to tell me he wouldn't be coming in until the next afternoon.
It's been a bit of a roller coaster ride since then, and I've been dealing with health issues for most of his time here. I remembered what a high energy guy he was, and that hasn't changed, so this is not easy for him, with me stuck in bed sick. And with my training in empathic healing work, it's tough for me to deal with, also. I know what it means, and I can't stop it by myself.
So, I missed my "posting faithfully" on Fridays for my fanfic blogs and I've barely been online. There have been some other "first times" for both of us, but that's a little too personal to go into here ...
It's been a bit of a roller coaster ride since then, and I've been dealing with health issues for most of his time here. I remembered what a high energy guy he was, and that hasn't changed, so this is not easy for him, with me stuck in bed sick. And with my training in empathic healing work, it's tough for me to deal with, also. I know what it means, and I can't stop it by myself.
So, I missed my "posting faithfully" on Fridays for my fanfic blogs and I've barely been online. There have been some other "first times" for both of us, but that's a little too personal to go into here ...
Saturday, March 2, 2013
On Being a Biatch
My first day roaming around in my little car since I got it out of
the shop! I am sooooo happy to have my little Silver Ride back! Sealed a
deal with a client that I'm really going to enjoy working with, had a
fantastic lunch at a restaurant that made me feel like I was in a sci-fi
movie, and got everything smoothed over and happy with Storm.
Today was a good day. Yesterday, um, kinda sucked from the get go, though, but I got past it. Relationship issues. Gather that from the fact that things needed smoothing and happying?
Well, I learned something about myself, anyway. I still whip out the bitch badge in a heartbeat if someone says the phrase, "I'm bored," around me. Or more specifically, referring to me. Yeah. That kind of day.
So, there was a lot of misunderstanding involved, and I figured out (or decided?) eventually that he didn't mean he was bored with ME. But not before I decided to make his life EXCITING again. So either way, whether he meant it or not, problem solved, right?
Oh yeah, baby. I pushed my sweet Storm, a normally incredibly kind and patient man, into a flat-out, fire-breathing jealous rage.
Yus. I was bad. Very.
Sweet little Sarah who loves everybody unconditionally decided to write a chapter in the cosmic version of the book "Why Men Love Bitches." That's me!
Well, maybe not a chapter, just a blog, because I'm feeling pretty sweet again today. Time to get back to meditating more, though, definitely.
Today was a good day. Yesterday, um, kinda sucked from the get go, though, but I got past it. Relationship issues. Gather that from the fact that things needed smoothing and happying?
Well, I learned something about myself, anyway. I still whip out the bitch badge in a heartbeat if someone says the phrase, "I'm bored," around me. Or more specifically, referring to me. Yeah. That kind of day.
So, there was a lot of misunderstanding involved, and I figured out (or decided?) eventually that he didn't mean he was bored with ME. But not before I decided to make his life EXCITING again. So either way, whether he meant it or not, problem solved, right?
Oh yeah, baby. I pushed my sweet Storm, a normally incredibly kind and patient man, into a flat-out, fire-breathing jealous rage.
Yus. I was bad. Very.
Sweet little Sarah who loves everybody unconditionally decided to write a chapter in the cosmic version of the book "Why Men Love Bitches." That's me!
Well, maybe not a chapter, just a blog, because I'm feeling pretty sweet again today. Time to get back to meditating more, though, definitely.
What
saved me was a call from my sister. She's the middle sister, and we
have a pressure cooker relationship -- bubbles along happily for about
six months and then BOOM! Guts on the ceiling.
But that's a whole 'nother story, and her call in this instance was a Divinely timed miracle. She remembered this beautiful, sweet man from my past, and reminded me of how he used to give me the puppy eyes and how much we loved each other. She said, very gently, "That doesn't seem like something to break up over."
But that's a whole 'nother story, and her call in this instance was a Divinely timed miracle. She remembered this beautiful, sweet man from my past, and reminded me of how he used to give me the puppy eyes and how much we loved each other. She said, very gently, "That doesn't seem like something to break up over."
And I remembered making a promise to myself after the
last time I pulled the "queen act" and lost someone I love that I would
never do that again. I think there have got to be better ways to make
life exciting in a relationship.
But then again, make up sex is really awesome, too... *wink*
Wednesday, February 27, 2013
Four Star, Five Star, What's the Dif?
So, today I was talking with Clint about that 4 star rating, trying to pin down how to make my book better and get a 5 star. Basically, he says it's great, he can't tell me how to make it better, he just has this thing about "perfection." Not sure I understand, maybe he thinks the other people that will review it behind him will be nit-picky and he'll lose cred?
I guess?
He says he's going to hold me to that promise of a sequel and jokingly says he's holding out for that to really make a commitment. Ha!
I asked him if he was able to "figure it out" and he said he wasn't, which was good. I wrote my characters true to form, but I managed to keep the man behind the curtain until I was ready for him to pop out! Good!
So essentially, it WAS a five star, I think.
Okay, so I'm brainstorming today about the sequel. I can't go into too much detail on my thoughts about it here because I'd be tossing out spoilers, but I have some good ideas. First, I need to pin down what I really want this story to MEAN. I had a very important message in "Sorcerer's Vendetta" that I wanted to share, so now I wonder if I can take my readers to the next level.
I'm going to tell you a secret. "Sorcerer's Vendetta" is not about what you think it's about. Sounds like a revenge story, right? Bad-ass, blow the crap out of the completely evil turd who pisses you off, right?
Nope. You'll see.
I guess?
He says he's going to hold me to that promise of a sequel and jokingly says he's holding out for that to really make a commitment. Ha!
I asked him if he was able to "figure it out" and he said he wasn't, which was good. I wrote my characters true to form, but I managed to keep the man behind the curtain until I was ready for him to pop out! Good!
So essentially, it WAS a five star, I think.
Okay, so I'm brainstorming today about the sequel. I can't go into too much detail on my thoughts about it here because I'd be tossing out spoilers, but I have some good ideas. First, I need to pin down what I really want this story to MEAN. I had a very important message in "Sorcerer's Vendetta" that I wanted to share, so now I wonder if I can take my readers to the next level.
I'm going to tell you a secret. "Sorcerer's Vendetta" is not about what you think it's about. Sounds like a revenge story, right? Bad-ass, blow the crap out of the completely evil turd who pisses you off, right?
Nope. You'll see.
Monday, February 25, 2013
Blech. And not so blech.
I was hoping to go get my car out of the shop today, but it seems to be something of a nope-not-gonna-happen day. Rain. No callback from the repair shop.
But it's been a good day. I'm going over my novel ONE MORE TIME with a fine-toothed comb, and I'm making progress.
I got my first review! My spiritual mentor, Clinton Ford, (also good friend) gave me 4 stars! I KNOW I can count on him to tell me the truth, so that 4 stars is just as precious to me as a 5. And the cool thing about ebooks is that I can take his suggestions right away, rework it and BINGO! Got my 5 star novel!
So. I'm wondering if naming this blog "First Times" is attracting some people who like coming of age works. My novel involves a "first time" experience too, but I'm not giving away any spoilers here! Go read it!
Here it is on Kobo! Isn't that awesome?
Also, I have a fantasy blog, free fan fiction, that covers that, and a story that I don't show around too much (it's a little pornographic). Anybody want to see that? I was just looking for a motivation for my character to leave his paradise home when I wrote it, I didn't think about the fact that it involved a 16-year-old and a 15-year-old. Can I get in trouble for that? Man, with all the stuff I see out on the internet, I sure hope not!
Here a link to that blog:
Enjoy!
But it's been a good day. I'm going over my novel ONE MORE TIME with a fine-toothed comb, and I'm making progress.
I got my first review! My spiritual mentor, Clinton Ford, (also good friend) gave me 4 stars! I KNOW I can count on him to tell me the truth, so that 4 stars is just as precious to me as a 5. And the cool thing about ebooks is that I can take his suggestions right away, rework it and BINGO! Got my 5 star novel!
So. I'm wondering if naming this blog "First Times" is attracting some people who like coming of age works. My novel involves a "first time" experience too, but I'm not giving away any spoilers here! Go read it!
Here it is on Kobo! Isn't that awesome?
Also, I have a fantasy blog, free fan fiction, that covers that, and a story that I don't show around too much (it's a little pornographic). Anybody want to see that? I was just looking for a motivation for my character to leave his paradise home when I wrote it, I didn't think about the fact that it involved a 16-year-old and a 15-year-old. Can I get in trouble for that? Man, with all the stuff I see out on the internet, I sure hope not!
Here a link to that blog:
Enjoy!
Friday, February 22, 2013
Oops.
I stayed up late last night, having a blast talking to a friend on Skype and dancing to a funny kitty video -- "Funny Water Cats" set to Nicoletta Dara's "Is It True?" Thinking I was going to be able to sleep late and have the day to myself, I really did it up. I was looking out for someone I was hoping to see on, too, my sweet Storm, but such was not to be. I was really needing the clearing and lift, though, and it was wonderful!
I've been over helping my parents all week, so I was really counting on having this morning to take it easy.
But this morning, my father calls. 7:45. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE my father dearly, but as I said, I was over there all week already. And, I was up until 4 a.m. And -- It's FREAKING 7:45!
He can't find the place mats because I washed the tablecloth and set them on one of the chair seats. He already fussed at me yesterday because I threw away the paper plates that had dried egg on them from that morning. I'm supposed to wash EGG off of paper plates?
I start to go back to sleep. Then he calls and says, "I need to talk to you," in this really flat voice. I'm thinking my mother died. I ask if she's alright and he says, "She's home. I'm coming over." That doesn't ease my mind one bit and I'm in a nightmare until he gets here.
He gets here and it doesn't get much better. He's still upset about something that happened a couple of weeks ago. I can't help him because he won't go into prayer with me on it, he just wants to keep spiraling and spiraling in his matrix of hell. So he stomps off feeling like I won't listen to him, and I'm not even awake yet.
Then he calls again. He can't find his umbrella. My fault again for cleaning the apartment so it can be steam cleaned, which I will also be paying for.
My son, Tory, IMs me and asks for $5. I try to log into my bank account to see if I can spare it, and I'm so upset I blow the password three times and get locked out. Tory suggests I take a bath to relax. I take TWO baths.
There's another knock at the door, and I figure it's my father AGAIN. I want to make a point. I need time to MYSELF, sometimes! So I storm to the door and whip it open, standing there in my towel with my hair dripping.
There's a very shocked cop standing there
He turns his gaze to his pad and stares at it as if it's making faces at him, so he won't be looking at me. "Is there a mumble mumble Lopez ...?" he asks.
I explained to him who I was, no Lopez here, and why I opened the door in a towel. He smirks and says, "Good luck with that!"
So, that's the writing life, getting a first time novel off the ground. LOTS of time to write, right?
Aaaaaaand... Here it is again! Last day for the coupon for first time reviewers! Get it now! Code: SS95W
Update: Now available exclusively on AMAZON!!! (No coupon code, sorry!) One click to Kindle!
I've been over helping my parents all week, so I was really counting on having this morning to take it easy.
But this morning, my father calls. 7:45. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE my father dearly, but as I said, I was over there all week already. And, I was up until 4 a.m. And -- It's FREAKING 7:45!
He can't find the place mats because I washed the tablecloth and set them on one of the chair seats. He already fussed at me yesterday because I threw away the paper plates that had dried egg on them from that morning. I'm supposed to wash EGG off of paper plates?
I start to go back to sleep. Then he calls and says, "I need to talk to you," in this really flat voice. I'm thinking my mother died. I ask if she's alright and he says, "She's home. I'm coming over." That doesn't ease my mind one bit and I'm in a nightmare until he gets here.
He gets here and it doesn't get much better. He's still upset about something that happened a couple of weeks ago. I can't help him because he won't go into prayer with me on it, he just wants to keep spiraling and spiraling in his matrix of hell. So he stomps off feeling like I won't listen to him, and I'm not even awake yet.
Then he calls again. He can't find his umbrella. My fault again for cleaning the apartment so it can be steam cleaned, which I will also be paying for.
My son, Tory, IMs me and asks for $5. I try to log into my bank account to see if I can spare it, and I'm so upset I blow the password three times and get locked out. Tory suggests I take a bath to relax. I take TWO baths.
There's another knock at the door, and I figure it's my father AGAIN. I want to make a point. I need time to MYSELF, sometimes! So I storm to the door and whip it open, standing there in my towel with my hair dripping.
There's a very shocked cop standing there
He turns his gaze to his pad and stares at it as if it's making faces at him, so he won't be looking at me. "Is there a mumble mumble Lopez ...?" he asks.
I explained to him who I was, no Lopez here, and why I opened the door in a towel. He smirks and says, "Good luck with that!"
So, that's the writing life, getting a first time novel off the ground. LOTS of time to write, right?
Aaaaaaand... Here it is again! Last day for the coupon for first time reviewers! Get it now! Code: SS95W
Update: Now available exclusively on AMAZON!!! (No coupon code, sorry!) One click to Kindle!
Wednesday, February 20, 2013
Ooookay -- actually I think this is the place to post my thoughts on the writing life. I didn't realize my entire blog was going to be named "First Times" but I guess that's alright since I'm publishing my first book as an indie author.
I'm way too tired today after working all day to finish up the paperwork for the VA for my parents, getting their apartment cleaned up, and doing lymphatic massage on my mother's feet to get the swelling down to write a real crowd-pleaser of a blog, so...
Two more days 'til my free coupon expires for my first time reviewers!
Here's the code: SS95W
Get it quick!
Sorcerer's Vendetta
Thank you!
I'm way too tired today after working all day to finish up the paperwork for the VA for my parents, getting their apartment cleaned up, and doing lymphatic massage on my mother's feet to get the swelling down to write a real crowd-pleaser of a blog, so...
Two more days 'til my free coupon expires for my first time reviewers!
Here's the code: SS95W
Get it quick!
Sorcerer's Vendetta
Thank you!
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